Hurry Up and Wait...

that is pretty much what we are dealing with. I hear that saying quiet often being a dependent in the Air Force. Right now we are dealing with trying to get a ERD (Early Release of Dependents) so the children and I can move back to Alabama. We had to hurry up and get the paper work in so we could be gone by the end of May. The end of May is next week and we still don't have orders to leave. The kids will need to get in the Acceleration Program at school to be able to get their grade of completion and be able to leave 20 days before school lets out but they are not allowed to do so until we have orders. Their last day of school is at the end of June as of right now. I am afraid thats when the Air Force will actually get everything complete for us to leave. How do you break it to your kids that they will most likely have to stay here until then? My son is not dealing well living here. I am not sure if its because of what our family is going through or what. I know its hard for him to see his parents together knowing the heart ache I am going through. Its also hard for him to look at his father. I wanted so badly for those two to work out their issues before we leave. I don't want their relationship to get any worse. I pray daily that at some point they both will grow up some and realize they are stuck together forever. No matter what has happened and no matter how disappointed my son is with his father, he is will always be his father. Its just so sad to see time wasted by watching TV or being on their IPODS when they could be outside throwing the football or taking a jog down to the canal to talk. One day it will be too late. I digress though. So back to the hurry up and wait, without our orders from the Air Force I can not ship my car, buy airline tickets, or have the movers here to pack our stuff and start having it sent to Alabama. In a perfect world all that would have been done already so when we arrived I would have my car and household items so we can get settled before school starts again. Once school starts, I will have to find a job and start finding my way through the life of being a single parent.  Just typing that brought tears to my eyes. I never thought my marriage would be just another statistic. My kids were always so proud to say to their friends that yes my parents are still together and have been married for such and such time. Now they will join the other kids that deal with going to their dads every once in a while and having that part time parent. With JR living 4000 miles away in Europe for the next 2.5 years the kids will not be able to see their father easily, nor with the time zone they will not be able to pick up the phone and call him whenever too. So the kids are for sure over this place and ready to be in Alabama, if you are my sons friend on Facebook you would be able to come to that conclusion pretty easily. As for me I just started loving Europe. I could stay here for a while and be just fine, other than knowing my husband is cheating on me and would rather us be gone so he can do whatever his heart desires. I want to travel and explore this part of the world. That was one of the reasons JR joined the Air Force. JR said to me "I want to show you the world". Well buddy I guess you kinda did, just not in the way I thought you would. So at last we will wait and wait until the Air Force signs the orders, then its back to hurrying up again....after that the next time we wait will be for our plane to take the kids back to their happy place and for me, it will take me away from my husband and my life I started here and make me realize this all isn't a dream and I am not in a coma have the worst nightmare of my life...in fact it will be real.