Savor

Yesterday that was the word of the day....Savor, what do it really mean to savor? Sara has taught us to Savor every moment of everyday because it could be your last. It is so hard to do that sometime. For me its hard to do hardly at all right now, because to be honest I don't want to savor anything that I am going through. There are moments that I do savor with the kids of course. I hate that their dad can't do the same. It makes me sick to even think about it. Being at Sara funeral yesterday made me see what true love is. Her husband and kids didn't seem sad at all in a way, they had smiles on their faces and I could see that he was just so glad it was finally over and Sara's pain was gone. You could see in the pictures he loved her very much and I pray one day I can have that kind of love in my life. I pray Ali will have that kind of example of a father and how a husband should truly love his wife. Yesterday, I wasn't sad for Sara she is in the best place a person could ever imagine. I was sad for us here on earth. Sara touched so many people and her example will live on. I pray I can learn to Savor everyday truly and move pass this hell I am living in. I pray JR will hit rock bottom and walk away from the life he is living and comes back to Christ and lives the way he knows is right. One day I hope I can share with him how to Savor every day and live for Christ. I just hope it won't be too late.