the do's and dont's

The whole separation or whatever this is that we are doing is so confusing! I swear!! Just trying to figure out a happy medium for everything is so hard. Someone needs to write a book on how to go through this type of thing. I would have so many questions. One of my main questions is Do I still wear my wedding ring? I have taken it off on the days I just feel like a fake wearing it, then I find it back on my finger when I still feel very connected to him. He made a comment one time about how he can't take his off since its a tattoo, and it just broke my heart. You see on our anniversary he got a wedding ring tattoo so he could NEVER take it off. It was put there as a reminder for when he was TDY etc. that he is married....apparently whores, I mean sluts, no...ummm stupid girls that don't care about their own marriage, really don't care if a ring in on the finger or not. I still feel married. I still want to be married. I still want to be married to my husband but in order for that to happen things will have to be VERY different. I digress, sorry! So back to the questions, does the married couple stay very close while separated? I know that in my relationship with him, we still talk for hours and talk often and it almost feels like he is just deployed and not home right now the only thing different is we don't say" I love you" at the end of the phone call or email.  For him, it may feel like something completely different. He is not one to talk about feelings etc. What guy really is?? I am not sure if he is the type of guy that could just call anyone and talk for hours....I don't think I want to know either.

But really how do people just separate when they have been together for long? I know my friends think I am insane for always talking to him, seeing him on FB etc. I am a very forgiving person and I know at some point I have to say yes I forgive him but I have also let him go, for good. I am just not sure I want to let go of him. I think he would love for me to let go as well but there is a strong pull for me to fight and until I feel its time to drop my head and walk away, I will keep fighting. I am so bi-polar in these blogs I know :) One blog, I am done fighting  a losing battle then next time I am rested and ready to fight again. Crazy..I know! I start counseling soon, don't worry!

So if you have answers to: when do you take off the ring? How much communication you should have with each other? or any advice on this let me know! and I don't want to hear you will know when its time...NO. I. WONT!